Sorry I haven't written in a while, I just haven't been in the mood.  I've had a little setback which has annoyed me a little bit.  You remember I mentioned that I was supposed to have an appointment with Mr Wong in November but he wasn't around so I saw his registrar instead?  Well she said that I was on the waiting list and so I had made all my preparations, told extended family etc.  I decided to call up the waiting list department to see whether a date had been set for me yet and I was told that I'm not on the waiting list!!  After several phone calls to various people I eventually got through to David who told me that the registrar was very wrong to have told me that I was on the waiting list as I had to be seen by Mr. Wong in person before he would add me to the list.  I couldn't help it but I was so angry to be told something that wasn't true.  When I told my grandparents about the operation it really wasn't the best time but I thought I didn't have a lot of time left.  I know I just have to accept this little setback and work forward but it's so frustrating!!  So, my next appointment with Mr. Wong will be at the end of February, which seems like an absolute lifetime to me.  David said he would try his absolute best to bring the appointment forward so I have got my fingers crossed!

When I first met David he mentioned a support group that he ran in the hospital for pre and post-op bariatric patients.  I didn't like the sound of a support group so I never really thought about it until last month.  My husband and I decided to give it a try and went along.  I have to say, we really enjoyed ourselves.  It was a small group, perhaps twenty people total, many of them quite far post-op and a few people pre-op.  It was very laidback, everyone was close friends with everyone else and we were immediately made to feel welcome.  A few partners came along as well so it gave Mark a good insight into what he will need to do after the surgery and he felt a lot more at ease.  It was a very surreal experience, I've never been with other people who understand what it's like to be big.  Nothing was off limits, from dumping to loose skin, everything was laid out in the open and that suited me fine!  All of the post-op people looked fantastic, you would never have imagined that they had ever struggled with their weight in their lives, I can't wait to be one of them.  Everything they said, all the fears and worries, resonated with me.  I felt totally connected to these people, they knew how it was to be me and it got me thinking that this was the first social activity I had entered into in about five years.  I am definitely going to make a point of attending these support groups in the future, although I will have to miss this Friday's meet because Mark and I are going to see Les Miserables!  They also have a Facebook group which lends even MORE support, they really have thought of it all.

On another positive note we won (yes, won!!) a two night stay in a boutique London hotel and we are going on the 11th of February to make an early Valentine's day trip.  Hopefully having something brilliant to look forward to will make me stress a little less about the upcoming appointment.